Yesterday was one of those days where I woke up with my mind spinning right where it left off the night before, thinking of all the things on my plate that needed attention. I could already feel the anxiety creeping into my chest and threatening to stay there in a knot until I started checking things off my list. I hate that feeling. My knee-jerk impulse is to run around like an un-showered madwoman because “that’s what it will take to get all the things done that I have to do today.” I will neglect my exercise, make poor food choices and as I do, the feeling in the home will instantly deteriorate as I bark orders at the kids, race out the door for school drop off and then come home and give my youngest about 1/4 of the attention she deserves. I will feel ugly and angry and by 8:21 am I will want to throw this day to the dogs.
But I didn’t. Instead I got the kids off to school and went for a walk with Princess Head in the stroller. I walked fast. I walked far. I exercised my body and I talked to my baby girl about our big and beautiful world. I stopped and snapped the picture above of the fenced path we walked, the trees starting to show off their fall colors. And I existed and lived and breathed in a moment and it was wonderful.
I left my stress and panic somewhere along the way and when I got home, I could face the day in a healthy manner. In fact, a lot of what was stressing me out seemed to disappear and I remembered what was really important. I showered, dressed and did my make up. I watched Mickey Mouse Clubhouse with my daughter. We had reading/snuggle time on the couch and read about 10 books together. I loved it. She loved it. And guess what? I still got the grocery list ready, we made it to the soccer games, dinner was on the table at 5:30. I honestly don’t remember what else was stressing me out so much. We had a great day and there was a calm and peaceful feeling in our home and in my heart.